Sometimes I like to worry about everything in the world at the same time. Anything can happen. And isn’t it better to think about every possible scenario in your life, obsess about it, and spend most of your time worrying?
No it isn’t.
I like to think about the future. Not just think, I even have pretend scenarios about things that could happen. On a really good day, I can go months ahead and wonder about all the outcomes of about a hundred different things at once.
The multi-tasking imagination.
I’m not even really a planner. I could be ready to hop on a plane tomorrow morning and go to an island if you asked me, I don’t need to prepare for that. I just need to throw a few things in a suitcase and I’M GOOD TO GO. (Also, someone please ask me to an island)
But I’m great at pretend over-planning the future in all sorts of ways.
I make up conversations with people that will never happen.
Worry about outcomes that no one could possibly predict.
Think about what people think about me, who likely aren’t even thinking about me.
Create problems that no one has even considered.
I like to look at the big, big picture of things. I can’t help it. And while sometimes that’s good, other times it causes me to get paralyzed in the moment and allows the worry of the world to land on my shoulders.
Worrying about the world is heavy.
Last week, in one of my “worst scenario daydream moments of despair” I called my Dad to pull me back into reality. Of all the advice he gave me, the most important thing he said was, “Don’t worry about tomorrow, tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of it’s own.” (actually Jesus said that originally, followed by my Dad)
At first I didn’t really appreciate that quote. I was looking for something a little more inspirational. I didn’t want to hear that each day will have trouble. I mean, I’d really like to order a bunch of trouble-free days please. Can’t you just tell me that all my days will be perfect?
I know. That’s not possible.
The main thing that I did get from my Dad’s Jesus quote was – Don’t worry about tomorrow.
Sometimes I’m stubborn and it takes me awhile to adjust to a new way of thinking, but my goal right now is to look one day out. I’m still dreaming and thinking about the future because that’s who I am. I’m also trying to live each day right now, and not let worry get ahead and rob me of things that may never happen.
That’s wasted living.
And while each day has it’s own troubles,
I won’t live worried.
About tomorrow, or any of the other days to come.