It takes a good amount of effort for me to see clearly on a regular basis. It’s likely time for transition lenses, but for now I have 6 different eye settings to help me function.

Contacts. Contacts with reading glasses. Glasses with no contacts, but I can’t see the tv. Sunglasses for contacts. Prescription sunglasses that can’t be worn with contacts. And “nothing but eyeballs” because it’s time to go to bed. 

Exhausting right?

Seeing clearly can be hard.

A couple weeks ago I started having trouble with my contacts. (The most important piece of the eye care regime) All of a sudden everything was foggy and blurry. I couldn’t see across the office at work and I really shouldn’t have been driving. One day I went to the mall to grab some lunch, but I left hangry because it was so annoying not to be able to see the Subway menu.

I cleaned the lenses, I changed them up but nothing worked.

So, I got dramatically worried.

Were my retinas burning out? Did I get a water amoeba that was eating my eyeball like the guy in the Facebook article? Did I need a new prescription? Was this another middle-aged delight?

I was about to make an emergency visit to the eye doctor when one morning I realized that I had made a change in my daily routine. I had just begun using some really thick, shellac-like moisturizer for 40-somethings and I was putting it on my face right after my shower.

Next step?

Insert contacts.

I realized what had happened.

I had impaired my own vision with wrinkle cream.

I was preventing myself from seeing the way I should. Important things in my life were put on hold and negatively affected because I couldn’t see clearly. There was a barrier to my sight and I needed to make an adjustment. 

My blurry-eye-week got me thinking about other times in my life that I haven’t always seen things as I should.

I’ve judged people.

Been close-minded.

Didn’t believe in myself.

Criticized the choices of others.

Thought I was right.

Made assumptions.

Wasn’t open to change.

Didn’t want to forgive.

Lived with insecurity.

Worried about what others thought. 

I’ve seen so many things wrong. When I don’t choose to take care of my lens, everything gets distorted and soon I can’t really see at all.

How we see is important.

Sometimes we all need to take out our lenses and give them a good scrub and adjust our vision.  

Our lens affects how we live our life and how we treat and love other people. Our lens guides how we react, how we engage and how we move forward together to create a better place.

I’m very careful with my lenses now.

I clean them. I protect them. I adjust them when needed. 

I make sure there are no obstructions. 

I need to see clear. I need to see better. 

And next time I’m walking around blinded by pink wrinkle cream,

I’ll make a change and try again.